Exclusive Interview – Bill: “I wanted to quit everything!” | Bravo #50

Bill has never been this thoughtful! The Tokio Hotel Frontman revealed to BRAVO how sad he is sometimes…
A record studio hidden in a backyard in Berlin-Schöneberg. Bill
Kaulitz (20) is in one of them, on the first floor of the building with
Nora (13), a BRAVO-Reader. She won a Speaker role in BRAVO for the
movie “Arthur und die Minimoys 2″ (in the cinemas since
November 26th). Bill lent his voice to the main character, Arthur. But
now, the Tokio Hotel singer takes care of Nora and supports her at her
recordings. Both get along well, Bill has a lot of fun and laughs the
whole time. But at the following BRAVO-Interview, he suddenly shows a
complete other side…

Bravo: Bill, are you happy?
Bill: I’m absolutely happy with my career. People like our Album
“Humanoid”. In most of the european countries we’re
more successful in the Charts with it, than with the previous Album! I
wish that it my private life would also go so well. I don’t know
what I need to be satisfied – but I’m not.

Bravo: Any idea why?
Bill: Maybe because I don’t have a lot of time to be happy about
something that I just experienced. I can’t enjoy our success,
because I always have to do other things. And sadly, I’m still
missing love…

Bravo: How can you find it? Can we help?…
Bill: I don’t even know that myself (sighs). There are a lot of
people who try to find a partner in a Realitysoap. But “Bill in
Love” wouldn’t be anything that I’d like to do. I
couldn’t “connect” to a girl in front of the camera
– that’s unimaginable. But it’s also very unlikely to
get to know someone in private. I’m not going out, not even to do
some shopping!

Bravo: And why don’t you escape of this world, and just go out without Bodyguards?
Bill: To be honest, I really don’t want to try that –
I’m even scared of it! Especially in Europe it’s very
difficult for me to go into a Club alone. Even when Securities are with
me, everything feels more like a Photoshoot session or a signing
session. Then I feel like an animal in the zoo. But that’s what
comes with this celebrity-status. Maybe I’ll get to know someone
through my job – who knows?…When I’ll fall in love,
it’ll probably happen randomly.

Bravo: Are you at least pleased with yourself?
Bill: Sometimes I can’t even stand myself. I don’t watch my
appearances on TV shows – I can’t stand me. It also annoys
me that I’m always thinking about something and that I’m
not relaxed and super excited. I always check 2 times if the door is
really closed and I check 10 times if I really didn’t forget
anything. I think I just have to learn to get more relaxed.

Bravo: Are you scared of the future?
Bill: Yes. Who knows what I’ll be doing in the next 5-10 years?
It’s my absolute nightmare to have a Job in the office.
It’s just not for me. Already at school I had an authority
problem. I can’t listen to anyone. I hope that I’ll always
be my own boss.

Bravo: Are you sometimes freaking out, or are you always nice?
Bill: I’m very emotional, and I often screamed at the other boys
or other crew-members when something didn’t go like planned or
when I didn’t like something.

Bravo: How does an argument of Tokio Hotel look?
Bill: Some years ago we beat each other. Today we’re putting some kind of psychological pressure on each other…

Bravo: Really?! How can we imagine that?
Bill: We’re not talking to each other, or we’re cancelling
dates of the others on purpose. When I’m totally excited for a
Photoshoot and when Tom is mad at me, then he cancels it secretly. But
on the next day the anger has mostly subsided.

Bravo: Did someone of you during a fight say: “I’m done with all this! I’m quitting!”?
Bill: Nobody said it out loud, but everyone of us had these thoughts at
least once! There were moments where I thought: I won’t do this
anymore, I’ll quit! And this thought is still present. I
sometimes still think that I want to have more time for myself.

Bravo: What are these situations, where you think it all gets too much?
Bill: When I don’t have any ideas or when I don’t know what
to do next. Then there are also days, where I think, that I just want
to pack my suitcase and don’t want to hear a thing about the Band
for a year. But in the end I think about the fans, and about the
strength they’re giving us and how much fun it is for me, to be
the Frontman of Tokio Hotel.

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