*Try to see world through my eyes

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Fri May 14, 2010 6:28 pm

~ 25TH CHAPTER ~

#Lely Talking#

It's been about 2 months since that happened, since that guy Peter… killed himself.
My birthday wasn't so great. I spent it in a hospital. They just wanted to make it sure am i fine. My leg was broken, but i didn't have gypsum anymore.
I had really bad nightmares at nights. Thank God, Bill was there for me the whole time. I'm not sure would i make it through without him.
I would start crying with no reason, asking Bill to sleep over just so i wound't be alone. My parents and brother were trying to help. But no solution.
It was August now. Just one more month and then… collage.
Bill's departure came back on my mind. I knew he's going to leave, move to his old place. How could i say 'Don't go' just because i felt unprotected without him?
Once, we even talked about it but it didn't go that well…

-Umm… Bill?
Bill : Yes? – he was looking at the tv in my room.
We were sitting on my bed. I was thoughtfully sitting next to him.
-Can i ask something?
Bill : Sure – he was still looking at the tv.
-Are you leaving?
Bill : What? – he turned and looked at me confusedly.
-I mean, you're going to your old place again?
Bill : I… You mean… On collage?
-Yeah.
Bill : How did you remember that? Why are you thinking about that?
-I'm just wondering if my boyfriend is going to leave me.
Bill : Well don't. I'm here whit you. That's all that matters – he smiled and looked back at the tv.
-Bill!...
Bill : What?! – he looked at me again.
-Please, tell me. Are you going to leave in a month?
Bill : Lely, i don't wanna talk about it – he stood up and turned off the tv.
-Why not?
Bill : Because.
-What's wrong?
Bill : Nothing – he was turned with his back to me.
But i could have heard sadness in his voice.
-Billie – i said quietly and put my arm on his shoulder.
He turned - Bill : Please, Lely, don't.
-What?
Bill : Uff, look-
In that moment, my mom came into my room.
Mom : Hey guys. Is everything ok? Are you hungry?
-No mom, we're fine.
Mom : I just made a cake, want some?
-No, thanks.
Mom : Just a lil bit.
-Mom!
Mom : Ok, ok, i'm sorry, i'm going.
Bill : No… Mrs. Tomić, i'm going (:
-But Bill…
Bill : No, i gotta go. Good bye.
He took his jacket and left my room. I heard him closing the front door.
Mom : Something happened?
-It's not important.
I turned around, sat on my bed and took Joshi.

#Later that day – evening#

Jelena : Lely Very Happy

Come on in.
I came to Jelena's house to a sleep over.
Jelena : How are you? – she took my bag and we went to her room.
It was a big light blue room. She was an only child – the whole room just for herself.
-I'm fine.
Jelena : What's wrong? – she sighed.
-How do you always know when something's wrong?
Jelena : Power Razz

-Hehe.
Jelena : So?
-Well, i had a fight with Bill =/
Jelena : A first fight, woo! Exciting!
-Jelena =(
Jelena : Sorry xP Did you try to call him?
-Yes, but he's not answering. I'm going to shoot myself -.-
Jelena : Lely :p
-Uff. Where's Lucas?
Jelena : I have no idea. But but but but but but-
-But?
Jelena : I didn't finish. But but but but but but but but…
I threw Joshi on her.
Jelena : Oh, Joshi Very Happy

-But?! U_U
Jelena : He asked me something ^^
-What?
Jelena : To marry him.
-Whaaaaaaat?! O.o
Jelena : Ahahaha.
This time i threw pillow on here – I can't even imagine you as a housewife.
Jelena : Who said i'm going to be a housewife? He's going to be a househusband Razz

-:p so what did he ask?
Jelena : Very Happy

-?_?
Jelena : I told you.
-Wait, he actually…
She just showed me a ring on her hand.
-Jelenaa!! O.O Wait, i knew something's going on between you & Lucas, but…
Jelena : You know that time you were in hospital? When you took pills an-
-Yea, yea -.- What happened then?
Jelena : We got together Very Happy

And… Wait, didn't i tell you that? Guess not, sorry Razz

-Ha-ha O.o
Jelena : So … Very Happy

-Wow!
Jelena : I'm actually… khm, it's weird to say it Razz

-Engaged

Awwi.
Jelena : Oh, Lely, would you-
-One second.
Jelena : Sure.
My phone rang.

-Yes?
' Yes. '
-What?

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Fri May 14, 2010 8:05 pm

Aaa- I wanted to know who's on the phone T_T Razz

Great job on this chapter sis ^^

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Fri May 14, 2010 8:09 pm

omg!!!! lely u got me addicted to this!!! <3 <3

plz post soon!!! i wanna know what happens next!!!! AGGH!!!!! hehehe xD

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Fri May 14, 2010 9:06 pm

Who's on the phone sissy??! :DD
Can't wait to know...
O.O I'm engaged ?!?!
hahah.....How old am I in the story?? :DD
Love you...
Post soon...<33333

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Fri May 14, 2010 9:51 pm

@Aaesha : LoL thanks sis ^^<3
@Karen : hehehe ^^ i'm so glad you love it hon *-* thanks so much <3
@Jelena : lol babe Very Happy

in some of the next chapters, i'll tell everything about you & your wedding Wink

love you too!<3

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Fri May 14, 2010 9:55 pm

n.p <3

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Fri May 14, 2010 10:01 pm

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Fri May 14, 2010 10:12 pm

I'll have a wedding?!?! o.O
cooL!!! xD
I can't imagine me as a bride... :DD

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sat May 15, 2010 2:33 am

Wow what a great chapter!!!! I love this story<333333 Very Happy

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sat May 15, 2010 11:01 am

Cool, Jelena is getting married Razz

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sat May 15, 2010 12:22 pm

hahah...I guess I am....:DD

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sat May 15, 2010 7:09 pm

@Sophie : hehe thanks Very Happy

<3

haha yup, Jelena, i guess you'll have a wedding Razz

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sat May 15, 2010 7:18 pm

No problem
Yey!! There'll be a wedding!!! Let's party bounce

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sat May 15, 2010 7:38 pm

hahah...Guys...I need a dress!!! :DD

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sat May 15, 2010 7:51 pm

ahaha
let's go SHOPPING! cheers

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sat May 15, 2010 8:01 pm

Yeah!!

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sat May 15, 2010 8:06 pm

hahah...We can go shopping when I come to croatia lely...:DD

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sat May 15, 2010 8:15 pm

haha
wii!!! ^^

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sat May 15, 2010 8:49 pm

woohoo ....party!!! :DD

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sat May 15, 2010 8:51 pm

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sun May 16, 2010 5:25 pm

~ 26TH CHAPTER ~

-What? Who is that?
' Oh, i mean, hey. It's Bill. '
-Bill, where are you? I tried to call you bu-
Bill : Please, don't say anything. Just… can we meet?
-Yes, of course. Did something happen?
Bill : No, no, just come to the park.
-Yeah, okay… But, please, tell me, wha-

He hung up on me.
I turned to Jelena – I gotta go now.
Jelena : But wait, i gotta ask something.
-Can we please talk later? I'm going to meet Bill, i'm really worried.
Jelena : Ok.
-I'm so sorry, i'll call you later.
Jelena : Sure – she closed the door after me.

I was on my way to the park, behind my building.It was a chilly evening.
I crossed my arms, i was cold. I was fastly walking from Jelena's building to mine. Bill was on my mind.
I was walking through the park, to our banch where we used to just sit together and talk. I saw him there. He saw me coming and stood up.
He seemed kinda worried.

-Hi.
Bill : Hey – he sighed.

Silence. We were standing in silence for a moment.
-Why did you hang up on me? – i asked disappointedly.
Bill : I'm sorry about that =/
-Well, anyway, is everything ok? Why didn't you answer your phone when i was calling you?
Bill : Sorry about that too.
-Well excuses won't help – i said a bit madly and looked away still with my arms crossed.
Bill : Look, Lely, i really don't wanna do this, but…
Again i looked at him with fear in my eyes.
-Yeah… ?
Bill : Today, when you asked am i going to leave for a collage, i didn't answer because…
He stopped.
-Because? – i got closer to him.
Bill : Well, the answer is yes.

Woah! My whole world was crashing down.
-W-w-when… are you leaving?
Bill : I'm starting in September, but i'm probably leaving in a few days.
-What? And you're telling me that Now?
Bill : I know it's soon…
-Well yeah!
Bill : I don't want us to fall apart.
-And what do you want? – i looked away again.
I couldn't look him. It was too much of everything in one moment.
Bill : I just wanna… - he sighed – look, i don't know what i want. All i know is that i don't wanna fight with you. I don't wanna go knowing that you're mad at me.
-I'm not mad – i looked down.
Bill : You seem so.
-Well i'm not! – i yelled and looked at him.
Bill : Sorry.
-Uff i don't wanna talk right now. I'm not ready for this. You should have told me this before.
Bill : I know, i know. Come on, look at me – he put his hands on my shoulders and wanted me to look into his eyes – Lely, Lely! You know i love you and nothing, i'm telling you, NOTHING could ever brake us apart.
I finally looked into his eyes.
I didn't say anything for a few seconds. He was still smiling at me kindly.

-Look, I can't, I can't do this… - i finally answered.
I looked away again and tried to go out of his touch.
Bill : Lely… Lely – he tried to hold me.
-No.
I moved his hands while still looking down.
-Sorry, Bill, but i can't do this. I don't wanna say goodbye to you.
I was rumbling. He wanted to come to me and hug me.
-Don't come closer – i waved with my head.

Then i turned and started walking home through the park. Tears were falling down my face. What was i supposed to do? I really didn't want to say goodbye. Especially not now when i needed him the most.

I came into my flat. I heard my mom saying 'hi', but i didn't reply. I just went to my room, layed on my bed and cried. Minutes were passing slowly.

*Next day in the morning*

Next day, i woke up with a strange feeling. Like something was missing. I thought through everything what happened yesterday. It just didn't seem right. Maybe i shouldn't have left without listening what he has to say first.
I put on my clothes and went outside. I saw a pregnant women while walking to the park and remembered Jelena.
SHIT! I forgot to call her.
I think she'll forgive me. I hope. Plus, why did a pregnant women remind me of Jelena? O.o
Uff…
I came in the park, but there wasn't Bill on the banch. I was hoping i'd find him there, but guess not. I knew he lived with his granny, but i didn't know the address.
Lucas!
I called Lucas. They were best friends. He should have known.
Wait, but why didn't i know where he lived? He never invited me to his house, never introduced me with his grandma.
Whatever, not important now… i guess =/
I called Lucas. He told me Bill's address and was suprised how i didn't know that.
Well, that's a good question Lucas <.<

A few minutes later i was standing in front of Bill's house. I knocked on the door.
I was expecting Bill's gonna open it, but instead of him, his grandma opened the door.

Grandma : Yes? – she opened the door and looked at me kindly.
-Em, hi. I'm Lely - i smiled – is Bill at home?
Grandma : Well, no, he's not actually. Oh, and how do you know my grandson?
-I'm his girlfriend, actually.
Grandma : Ohhh, Lely, yes, yes, he was telling me about you. But honey, didn't you know?
-Knew what?
Grandma : I thought he told you.
-Told me what? – i was curious and confused now.
Grandma : He left. Billie went to Leipzig, on his collage.
-What? – i closed my eyes. I felt a little bit dizzy.
Grandma : Aha =] Did you need him something?
-When did he leave?
Grandma : A few minutes ago. He's on his way to the airport. Oh, sweaty, are you ok?
I think she noticed i felt sick and dizzy at the moment.
-I'm fine. Uff, when is his flight?
Grandma : In an hour. You know, he seemed really sad while leaving. Well, guess he's going to miss us 2, don't you think so?
-Yeah, yeah…

Bill's grandma was looking at me so nicely and kindly.
But i still couldn't believe he left without a word. A person would think you can believe somebody like him.
But i didn't give up, i surely didn't want him to leave without me saying what i really felt to him.
You can't ran away from the feelings.

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sun May 16, 2010 5:35 pm

aww...so sad...
and this --->You can't ran away from the feelings. is to true... :''(
a pregnant women reminded you of me?!?! ccc...:'((
why!??! affraid

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sun May 16, 2010 5:40 pm

lol calm down, calm down
yea, it's true =/
umm it reminds you of me because... you're getting married and... ahh next chapters! xD
<3

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