*Try to see world through my eyes

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Tue Jun 29, 2010 2:05 pm

Nikolaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa DIE YOU IDIOT!!!!!! -.-
I so HATE HIM!!!
It's getting so interesting!!!
Woohoo!! I can't wait for the next chapterrrrrrrr... :DD
post soooooooon.. <33

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Tue Jun 29, 2010 10:00 pm

Oook. I think it's time for me to leave an comment!
I agree with Jelena. Nikola -> Die! >.<
Poor Billy! And he's got right to kick his ass! Razz

Ok. Write new soon,
I love you.

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Wed Jun 30, 2010 2:24 pm

PuFFy, I've got an idea!!!
Let's go together and kick Nikola's ass!!!
What do you think?? ^^
That nikola is really bothering me !!! Mad

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Wed Jun 30, 2010 8:18 pm

~ 45TH CHAPTER ~

-Don't touch me – i said as i took his hand off of my chin.
But he continued smiling and petting my face – Nikola : Why are you so against me?
-Because i don't want you in my life again – i rambled away from his hand.
Nikola : Please, give me another chance?
-You used all your chances. It is enough now. And please go.
Nikola : Bill's at home? Should i be afraid.
-No, he's not. But you should be.
Nikola : Then i don't care – he was coming closer to me – he should know he has a wanted girl, if i were him, i'd never let you go anywhere alone.
-Nice said – i said panicly as i was standing right in front of the wall, having no place to go.
Nikola : You should believe me. Like you did before.
-Go! – i strached my hand, showing him 'stop'.

He stopped and looked down. The look on his face was sad, depressing.
Nikola : Why are you doing this to me? – he looked back at me, i saw tears in his eyes.
-Nikola… don't cry. We… wouldn't work… you know. And i have Bill, he's my everything.
Nikola : I used to be your everything. But now i'm nothing to you.
-Because you screwed up – i tried to say it as gentler i could, but it was abvious you couldn't say it like that.
Nikola : I'm kicking my own ass, everyday, 'cause i made a stupip mistake. I should have tried harder.

-Please, just go.
Nikola : But Bill's not here, you could do whatever you want, like… - he smiled.
-Like? – i was hoping he won't say it.
Nikola : Like be with me – but he did.
-No… no, no, no, no! Never! I would never cheat on Bill and i could never lie to him.
Nikola : You wouldn't lie, you just wouldn't tell him.

-Leave my home! Now! – i yelled.
Nikola : Come on, i know you want me.
-NOW! – i looked away and showed him the door with my hand.

Nikola : Ok… - he turned, but he fastly added – i love you too! – and winkled.
-What? – i was confused.
In a moment, i saw Bill standing at the door looking at me.
Bill : What is this?
Nikola : Hey, dude – he was rambling away from Bill - don't you dare punching me again.
Bill : Lely, did he just say he loves you?
-What? I don't know. I don't care.
Nikola : I just told you back what you told to me.
-What? I… NO! Bill, he's lying. I never told him i love him – i tried to make things better.
But Bill didn't say a word.
Nikola : Yes, you did Lely. Don't lie now, in front of Bill – he turned to Bill – look, i bet she does love you too.
-Nikola! – i came to him and pushed him away – why are you doing this to me? Trying to make Bill and me apart! What's wrong with you?! Go away! Go back from where you came from! – i turned to look at Bill, but he wasn't there anymore.

-Where's Bill?
Nikola : I think he went in.
-He's in the flat?
Nikola : Yeah.
-But… the door is closed. My key… - i started knocking on the door, but Bill wasn't opening.

-Bill, please, i didn't tell that… - i stopped after a few minutes.
I was all mixed up, crashed, confused. What had happened?
This idiot came back to my life and tore it apart again.

Nikola was still standing there, behind me, looking at me going crazy.
-What? – i screamed impertinently.
He saw the look in my eyes. So he just went away, took the elivator and left.
-Great, if he had left minutes earlier, then all of this wouldn't had happened.

I went to the staircase on sat on the stair.
My head hurt and nothing seemed good at the moment. My boyfriend was mad at me, disappointed, or i don't know. I was out of my own apartmant. There was my ex who didn't want to leave me alone. And my angry friend, who acted bitchy and didn't want to even talk to me.

(…)

I was walking through dark, cold streets, giving some time to Bill. And to myself…
I was thinking about all the mistakes i did in my life. None of them seemed as big as this one.
I didn't even realize what happened until… the door was closed in front of my face. Literally!

Now, people were passing by, along with time.
It was like my first time in Berlin, i felt like not knowing anybody, even though people were saying 'hi'.
I just wanted to be in Bill's hug again. But… felt like it would never again happen.
I was desperate. No place to go, no person to talk to.

A few minutes later, i was standing in front of a huge building. It was a post office.
Nikola, he's somewhere in there. At least i was hoping he was somewhere in there.

-Nikola (don't wanna say the surename, sorry)? Is he working here?
Receptionist : Sorry, i can't tell you names of our workers.
-But, it's really important. Where is he?
R. : Are you his family member?
-Well…

R. : I'm sorry then.
-Uhh, yes, i'm his… sister.
R. : Really?
-Yes, really. Tell him his sister Lely is here and i need him. He'll come in a second.
She waited a few seconds, but then she took the phone and called somebody.
R. : He'll be here in a moment. Wait please.
-Thank you.

Man, people can be strenuous.
He came in a few minutes.
Nikola : Lely? – he looked at me weird.
I turned – Hey…
Nikola : What are you doing here?
-Well…. I'm not sure, actually.
Nikola : Bill still didn't open the door?
-No – i crossed my arms.
Nikola : Emm… he will, i'm sure.
-Can i ask why did you do that? Why did you lie in front of him?

He looked around and then took me to a room-closet.
Nikola : I already told ya, you're my everything. That's why i'm here.
-But i love Bill.
Nikola : I odn't care. You can love him for your whole life, but all i want is to be with you. Just to be near you.
-No…
Nikola : But didn't you ever imagine us together?
-I did. But that was years ago. I don't think about you anymore. At least i didn't until you showed up now. You're making me miserable.
Nikola : Lely, that's love – he took my hand and leaned his head on my forehead.

Wasn't sure what to do. God knows i love Bill with my whole heart and i care about him, need him, want him.
But Nikola was giving me all his attention.

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Wed Jun 30, 2010 8:26 pm

uh-oh...i smell trouble!!!!

hehe please post soon!!! the excitement is killing me!!! xD

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Wed Jun 30, 2010 9:18 pm

Omg,, he's ruining it !! >.< lol ,, Great chapter Very Happy

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Thu Jul 01, 2010 7:15 am

I need to know what happened next Razz

Post soon!!!
I always hate it when another guy comes and ruins everything Sad

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Thu Jul 01, 2010 11:17 am

Ahhh.........he's so................boring (nikola)!!!!
Will he ever leave you alone?! O.o
Lely punch him :DD
Maybe then he'll leave you alone!!! Razz

Ahh...And Bill got little on my nerves -.- Why on hell did he close th door!?!
I mean...I this moment...right now...I'm angry with him!!! -.-
LoL...
POst soon.. ^^
Wolim <3

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Thu Jul 01, 2010 11:39 am

ahahahaha
thanks guys for all your comments, you made my day... oh, what the hell, you made my week Very Happy

yup, Nikola's an idiot, even in a reality Razz

it's so cool when somebody's excited 'bout my story, haha

i love you all!!<3<3

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Thu Jul 01, 2010 6:44 pm

Hahah...yeeeeey us!!!
we made your week Very Happy

We love you more!!! ^^ <33
New chapter tonight right??? *puppy eyes*

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Fri Jul 02, 2010 4:55 pm

awww sweety<3
sorry, it's today Razz

->

~ 46TH CHAPTER ~

I closed my eyes, forgot about everything. Tried to think about everything, my life.
No, Bill was one and only for me. Nobody else but him.

-Nikola, sorry, i can't… i can't – i said halfheartedly as i moved my head away from his.
Nikola : But, why? What happened? On a moment i thought…
-No, this shound't happen. Really! I love Bill so much. I'd regret the rest of my life. I should go.
Nikola : No, please. Don't go. I need you. And… Lely, you don't have any place to go.
-Yes, i do. It's called home. And Bill.
Nikola : He won't open.
-He will, yes he will – i nodded.
I was hoping he will. He can't leave me on the street forever.

I went out of the room-closet.
Receptionist : Miss? – she called behind me.
-Yes? – i turned.
Receptionist : You gotta sign this?
-What? Why?
R. : I gotta have a list of everybody who has been here. Please, sign this.
-Em, ok – i came back to the reception, signed the paper and was on my way to leave.

But somebody suddenly took me for the wrist. I rashly turned back.
Nikola : Please, don't go. I'm really sorry for that… what i said. I won't do it again. And, just come with me. You can sleep at my place this night. I'll take you home, first thing in the morning. Ok? Just… give some time to Bill. And to yourself. I'll also apologize.
He looked at me those sweet eyes, trying to make me stay.

-I… - i tried to resist, but guess he was right. I also needed some time. Would it make it better if i stay at Nikola's?
I thought a few seconds – If you even try to touch me, i'll leave. Ok?
Nikola : Hehe i promise i won't – he smiled.
-Ok…
Nikola : Just, wait a few minutes. I gotta finish my work. Ok?
-Yep. Sure.
Nikola : You can sit there, by the reception. See you in a minute.

I sat next to reception. The receptionist looked at me weird. I felt strange.
Receptionist : So… - she was chewing the gum, opening her mouth like a cow – you're Nikola's sister?
-Yes.
R. : Or not!
-What?
R. : I know you're not his sister.
-I am, really.
R. : He talks about you the whole time. How he finally found you, can love you again, that you're his everything. I'm not sure that's only brother's love.
-W-well-
She continued – R. : You remind me of one of those hoes, you know… eh.
-What?
She continued chewing her gum.
-I'm not a hoe. Why did you tell that?
R. : You just remind me of one of them. Don't take it personaly – she winkled.

Wait, she just said i'm a hoe? What the hell?
-You don't even know me! – i stoop up and started yelling – My day was all screwed up! And now, all of a sudden, you started insulting me. What's wrong with you? What's wrong with people?!
Nikola : Lely! – he ran to me, trying to stop me, calming me down – shh! Shh! Calm down.
-How?! She started talking about-
Nikola : Shhh – he put his hands on my cheeks, looking straight into my eyes, smiling a smile of care.

I took a deep breathe. Why did i let that receptionist make me pissed?
Nikola was trying to calm me down.
Nikola : Shh, it's ok, she's a bitch, not you – he whispered in my ear.
I tried to smile, but he whispering in my ear was wrong. I felt like cheating.

-Yeah…
Nikola : Come on, let's go – he took my hand – oh, and Leyla – he turned to the receptionist – if you do this ever again, i swear i'm going to make them fire you.
R. : W-what? – she looked so confused.
Nikola : Don't mess with my friends, ever again! – he yelled while everybody was looking at him, and then he turned, pulled me with him.

-What was this? – i asked while we were walking through the streets.
Nikola : Nothing. I just don't like when people say shit about my… friends.
-We're not friends – we stopped walking.
Nikola : Bu-
-No 'but'. We're not friends. I'm sorry if you thought other way.
He started walking again, i followed him.

Nikola : Are you cold? – he put his hand around my shoulder.
Just my one look was enough to make him take his hands of off me.
Nikola : I'm sorry, i just can't watch you get cold.
-I'm fine, thanks. Where's your apartman?
Nikola : We're close.

(…)

You can sleep in my bed. I'll go sleep on the sofa – he said while looking into the fridge.
-No, no. I'll sleep on the sofa.
Nikola : It's ok. You gotta take a rest. You had a hard day.
-No, really, it's the least i can do – i replied while looking around his apartman.

It was small, but cosy. It felt like a real home.
Maybe Nikola wasn't so bad at all. He really seemed like care about me. And he got together. He used to smoke and drink.

-Can i ask, why and when did you move to Berlin? I mean… Germany? And you together?
Nikola : I know – he was drinking soda and sat on the armchair – i came here because… I had an aunt here. She called me one summer, you know, to come visit here. Then i found a season job. After a while, i found a permanent one and i stayed here. This was actually her apartman. But she died… a year ago and left it to me.
-Ow… - i was shocked.

-Well at least you live on your own now, ha? It feels good, doesn't it?
Nikola : Yeah. But sometimes i feel lonely.
-What happened with your girlfriend?
Nikola : We broke up.
-Why? Oh, it's personal, sorry.
Nikola : No, no, it's ok. Uh, i don't know. She moved house, stopped calling and… it was the end.
-You don't seem hurt.
Nikola : I'm not. I always loved somebody else more than her.
I looked away.

Nikola : So what about your life?
-Nothing…
Nikola : Why did You move to Berlin?
-You always knew i like Germany.
Nikola : But not german.
-Yeah, it's a hard language, hehe. But Bill is German.
Nikola : Aha. So he made you move here?
-No, i wanted to do that.
Nikola : Are you sure you like him that much? He doesn't seem so nice. He punched me, left oyu standing in front of your own place. He seems like a bad guy. Not the right one for you.
-You're starting it again.
Nikola : What?
-Look, you don't have a right to judge him. He's a perfect guy. You made him that way. You pissed him off.
Nikola sat on the sofa, right next to me.
-What are you doing?
He took my hand and kissed it – Nikola : I'm sorry for my behavior – smiled and got even closer.
I tried to rabmle away, but he was following me.
-Stop. Nikola.
He came to me, as closest he could, put his hand on my neck. His head and lips were just a fey centimeters away from mine.

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Fri Jul 02, 2010 5:21 pm

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!! Neutral

I'm excited to know what happens next ! Very Happy

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Fri Jul 02, 2010 6:46 pm

Oh no, please don't do this, go back with Bill before it's too late!!!!!!
Post soon please!!!! Very Happy

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Fri Jul 02, 2010 6:56 pm

I want to know what happened!!!!
Where's Bill when you need him?
He's always there, but not here Sad

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Fri Jul 02, 2010 9:54 pm

i repeat: uh-oh..i smell trouble!!!!

hehehe!!! i really wanna know what happens next..not that i cant figure it out...
or can i??
hehehe!!! just post sooon!!!!! you'r driving me crazy with this!!! hehe!!

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Fri Jul 02, 2010 10:49 pm

haha
thanks for your commetns guys ^^
hmm i have few ideas about the next chap - to kiss him, not to Razz

anywayz, i'm excited to write a new one too xD

<3

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sat Jul 03, 2010 12:24 pm

Please don't!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Don't kiss him Sad

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sat Jul 03, 2010 9:20 pm

aww aww
ok, i'll think about it Razz

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sun Jul 04, 2010 9:52 am

Well, it's your choice.
It depends on the writer but still I'll go with no!
I'm too stubborn =P

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sun Jul 04, 2010 1:49 pm

aaaaa....I wanna know what will happen next!!!!
POST FAST! POST SOON! POST QUICKLY! POST TONIGHT!!! Very Happy

LoL....

ILY!

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Fri Jul 09, 2010 10:32 pm

Hey girls, i have something to say!
i know i haven't posten a new chapter... in a while <.<
i had some problems with my computer
i hope you don't mind if i post it in next 2 days?
i had like a half of the next chap on my pc, but everything got deleted :/
so i gotta start all over again >.<
i'm sooo mad -.-
anywayz, thanks for your patience

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Fri Jul 09, 2010 10:50 pm

Oh it's ok.....as long as you don't kiss him... xD Razz

We can wait... ^^ <33

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Fri Jul 09, 2010 11:34 pm

Aww it's okay Very Happy

Take your time ! <3

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sat Jul 10, 2010 10:23 am

ahh, thank you Smile

haha Jelena, okay xD

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sun Jul 11, 2010 7:28 pm

Ah, so finally, new chapter ^^

~ 47TH CHAPTER ~
I felt Nikola's touch, he pet my cheek with his fingertips. He smiled and sigh. I was speechless, out of control. I wanted to do something new, was so angry at Bill. Letting me stay in front of my own apartment, not saying a word was... that was absurd.
In the other hand, i knew i'd feel guilty, i could never bear that much pain. It would tear me up. I loved Bill way to much so i would betray him.

-No... – i said, not yelling, but with a strong voice, looking at his lips.
But he didn't say a word. Just smiled and continued coming closer to me – Nikola : Just let it go. We both know you want this. You need this.
-No.. no.. no – i was replaying the scenes of me cheating on Bill in my head – This ain't right – i looked down.
Nikola : Lely, i love you – he said it with a sweet voice, almost like begging me to stay.
-Nikola... – i was barely breathing and talking.
He made me feel confused, unprepared for something like this.
-But... you said you won't do it again – i sigh, still looking at his lips – you promised you won't even touch me. But look at us now. We're...
Nikola : We're about to kiss, yes. And i like it. I just want you for my own. Please don't ruin this. Lely – he looked into my eyes – he doesn't deserve you. He's not the right one for you.
-How do you know? – i stepped away a little bit, looking back at him, feeling offended.
Nikola : Did you see what he did to you? I would never do something like that. You can trust me.
-You already did. You left me the first time.
Nikola : Exactly – the first time. I had changed. I told you. Please believe me sweety- he pet my cheek again and came closer to me, reducing the distance.

For a moment i felt needed again. He made me feel loved. What was going on here? i asked myself, nothing could replace Bill. 'Bill's my one and only' i was replaying myself over and over again.
-Please don't make me feel like this.
Nikola : And how do i make you feel?
-Confused, mad, lovely... – i looked away.
But he put his hand on my chin, making me look at him – Nikola : I just want you to feel like you're just mine.
I looked down and asked myself – What and who do i reallly want? How would i feel if i do this with Nikola?
I thinked for a second and then replied – I'm sorry, i gotta go – i stood up fastly.
I took my jacket and started walking to the front door. Nikola followed me – Nikola : Don't go, sweetheart – he begged behind me.
-I'm not your sweetheart.
Nikola : But you're the one i love. The one i want. The one i need.
-No! – i turned – you only want... company. Somebody that will be there when you'll feel lonely. But you would never love me. You would just use me as the one who's there when no one else is. Please, save it for somebody else. You know i love Bill, and you know it really good.
Nikola : Lely, come on. Please, calm down. I just wanna talk to you in peace.
-Talk to me? I think you were trying to do something else.
Nikola : I'm apologizing, i just wanna talk to you now.
-Bill is more important to me. I'm going now – i took the doorknob, opening the door and leaving.
I heard him breathing fast, like he couldn't believe we didn't kiss even though he planned everything so perfectly.
-I'll report you about Bill and me – i yelled on my way out.

I was walking those dark and cold streets. They seemed even darker now. Like they tried to scare me, make me go back to Nikola's shelter. Or make me run to Bill.
I remembered Bill. I was hoping he's going to open the door now. I could never stand a night without me. Since we moved to Berlin together, there has never been a night i had to sleep alone. I needed to feel his touch every night.
And at the moment, i needed him more than any other time. The feel of insecurity and being lefted alone without him filled my mind.
I was wondering what was he doing the whole night? Did he miss me as much as i did him? Did he think about the things that happened?
I didn't feel like he should be mad at me. I haven't done anything. I was blaming Nikola. Him and his stupid brain. I was so angry.
Well, maybe it was my mistake, i started thinking. If i stood there in front of the front door the whole night, maybe things would be different. I should have tried harder. Not just give up so easily.
I stopped, put my hands on my head and shoke it. My head hurt. Things got screwed up. I left all that mess in Zagreb and moved to Berlin with Bill. Just so we could start all over again. So we could be free, alone, with no troubles and things like this. And then, mistakes and bad things started happening again. Even though we had a new begining.
So, why me? i asked myself. Why is it always me? Why do shit happen to me?

Then somebody interrupted my thoughts by yelling my name – 'Lely?!' – i heard a voice behind me.
I turned and saw Natasha – Natasha : Lely! Hey!
She seemed happy. And why wouldn't she be when she's getting married for a man she loves – i remembered the invitations she sent us.
-Hi... – even i recognized the despair in my voice.
Natasha : Are you ok? You sound... weird.
-Yes, yes, i'm... great – i looked away.
Natasha : Well, however you say. Anyway, what are you doing here? I mean, it's around midnight.
-Oh. Well i could ask you the same question.
She laughed – Natasha : My parents live close. I was there with Carl, my fiancé. We were talking 'bout some wedding things.
-Ohh. That's nice – i smiled obtusely.
Natasha : Anyway, are you and Bill coming? On our wedding, i mean.
-Umm, i don't know. We didn't talk about that. Sorry. Yeah, but we will definitely call you. I'm sure we will come.
Natasha : Great. Because i wanted to ask you to be my bridesmaid.
I looked at her surprised.
Natasha : So, what do you say?
-W-well... you caught me unprepared.
Natasha : Hehe i know, sorry about that. Well you can definitely thing about that. I'd be so happy.
-Hehe okay.
Natasha : Well, i'm going now. Carl is waiting for me in the car. It was nice talking to you Lely. Oh, and say 'hi' to Bill. I haven't seen him in a while. I miss him – she sigh and looked away – ah, so, bye bye, hon – she smiled and waved – see you around – she went to the parking lot.

I was just watching her leaving. She made me think about marriage. I remembered when Bill proposed me. And, then i thought, maybe, i could, in a way of apologizing, propose him. I love him with my whole heart. Maybe it would make him happy. If it makes him happy... it makes me happy too.

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