*Try to see world through my eyes

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sun Jul 11, 2010 7:56 pm

I really don't like that Nikola >:l
Great chapter btw Smile

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sun Jul 11, 2010 8:16 pm

xD haha yeah..
thanks Wink

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sun Jul 11, 2010 9:34 pm

Thank you !! they didn't kiss! weee bounce

Natasha was really nice :O
I love itt <3 Post soon please Wink

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Mon Jul 12, 2010 9:56 pm

haha no probs xD
yeaah lol
^^ thanks, i will hopefully <3

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Tue Jul 13, 2010 10:08 pm

YEYYYY!!! YOU DIDN'T KISS HIM!!!! xD
awww...Go home and talk to Bill sweetie... <33
I love the chapter... ^^
But I love you more... Razz

POst soon please!!! <33
kissesss

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Wed Jul 14, 2010 1:33 pm

hahaha no i didnt!! Razz

awwi ^^
thank youuu Very Happy

haha i love you too way more Wink

probably today Smile

<3

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Wed Jul 14, 2010 4:39 pm

~ 48TH CHAPTER ~

I looked around myself. I was standing in the dark, alone, thinking about my marriage. I couldn't imagine myself finally married. Even though i've been thinking about that since i was 14. I used to imagine my wedding dress, my husband – usually, it would be some famous singer or acter, I had so many crushes. I always wanted to have a wedding on a beach, in summer, holding hands with that special one. But would this be right? To get married only because... Ah, i wanted to think about happiness in my life that Bill would bring in. There was no place for questions and reassesses.
I took a deep breath and continued walking back to my apartment.
(...)
I finally gathered courage and knocked on the door, of my own apartment!
Nobody opened. I knocked and rang once again. Then i finally heard somebody talking in there and walking to the door.
'Yes?' – a woman opened the door.
She was wearing a check shirt, it was long to her knees. She had those perfect legs and long black hair. She seemed pretty confused seeing me there.
-I... where... who... – i couldn't talk properly, i was schocked.
'Khm, who are you?'
-Who am I? Who are you? – i crossed my hands on my chest.
'Samantha' – she stretched out her hand, wanted to shake.
I sarcasticly looked at her hand and then back at her. She took it back. Figured out i wasn't there to talk to her.
'Emm, Bill!' – she called his name.
He ran to the door, putting on the pants – Samantha, i think you should go- he suddely stopped when he saw me standing at the door.
Samantha : Yeah, i think i should – she turned.
Bill : Ow, my shirt... – he showed at the shirt she was wearing.
Samantha : Oh, right – she started taking of the shirt.
Bill : Woah! – he stopped her – you can... take it off... in the... emm... there – he showed at the bedroom.
She went away and he finished buckling his belt. He looked at me.
Bill : Lely... – i saw guilty in his eyes, his voice was sad.
I looked away, tears filled my eyes. My hands were still crossed, i was calming myself down.
Bill : He told you he loves you... i thought... i'm sorry, really. Lely, you know i love you.
-You said you will never again hurt me – i was still looking on the side.
Bill : Baby, please forgive me. I know i promised. Now i broke my promise, but i promise you it won't happen again.
-Don't promise things you know you'll break.
He stepped closer to me, wanted to put his hands on my shoulders, but i stretched out my arm, showing him to stop.
Bill : Lely...
We changed places – i stepped into the apartment and he was in front of the door, outside.
I was still looking in the side – I'm not sure what had just happened. This isn't right. My heart has been broken to many times. I want you to leave.
Bill : Lely, i said i love you and i swear i still do – he put his arms around my waist.
-Go away – i pushed him away.
Samantha came to us – Samantha : Is everything ok?
I was looking down, couldn't look at both of them, i felt betrayed.
Bill : My shirt?
Samantha : Ow, yes – she gave the shirt to me.
-What? Eh, just get out. Get out of my apartment! – i started yelling and brandishing with the shirt.
Samantha : What's wrong with you? – she ran out of the apartment on her high heels.
Bill : Why did you do that?
-Bill, you too, go! Please! – i wiped away my tears.
Bill : Look into my eyes and tell me what do you really see?
-No...
Bill : Come on, look into my eyes. Tell me you don't see regret. Come on!
-Regret?
Bill : I left you outside the whole night. And i'm trying to apologize.
-And what's up with this? With that hoe you just... Ok, i'm looking into your eyes – i looked at them – right now, all i see is... cheat, betray, broken promises. Should i go on?
Bill : What are you saying? I didn't sleep with-
I interrupted – I don't wanna talk to you. Ever again. I don't wanna see your face, hear your voice. I just wanna forget everyhting about you, everythng about us. I honestly hope you could live on with this what you have done today. I hate you. I hate you so much! I'm sorry for the next girl you'll be with.
Bill : Wh-
-Go away! – i yelled and threw his shirt on him – you killed the last piece of my heart – the tears were just ranning down my face, i couldn't stop them or the flurry of emotions.
I slammed the door and just leaned myself on them, crashed down in tears.
-Come and rescue me – were the only words i barely said out.
I wanted to hate him. I wish i could have done that. But somehow, my heart still belonged to him. And i knew it always will. And all i wanted to do was to be in his hug again, kissed his lips, hear him saying my name once again.

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Wed Jul 14, 2010 5:43 pm

AHHHHHHH! You just killed me for what you wrote Sad

I am so angry at Bill, why did he do something like that? Sad

Ohhh, I wanna know what's gonna happen next!

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Wed Jul 14, 2010 6:28 pm

awww i'm starting to think is my story becoming too depressing :/
ahh, i'm gonna start a new chap right now Wink

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Wed Jul 14, 2010 7:14 pm

No, it's not depressing it's just too exciting.
Btw it was a great chapter.

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Wed Jul 14, 2010 7:52 pm

oh, lol okay then
and thanks Smile

<3
ow, btw, i have already finished the next one Wink

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Wed Jul 14, 2010 9:03 pm

Can't wait to read it ;P

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Wed Jul 14, 2010 9:33 pm

hehe good

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Thu Jul 15, 2010 12:53 am

Oh honey... Sad

If I was really there..I mean in real life...And if that someone ever did to you...I think that i could really kill him....No one can do that to my friend...my BEST friend...
Remember this,for the real life!!!: NO GUY IS WORTH YOUR TEAR!!!!!
You are my angel...know...that I'll ALWAYS be there for you..no matter how far I am!!! <33
Post soon...It was an awesome chapter!!! :**

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Thu Jul 15, 2010 2:56 am

Exciting

~ !
Great chapterr.. post soon please Wink

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Thu Jul 15, 2010 8:19 pm

@Jelena : awwwwwi, sweety, now you will make me cry :')
i'm so glad to have a friend like you, i love you sooo much! ahh, bestie<3
and thank you Smile

<3

@Aaesha : awww, girls come on, don't put that emoticon, it makes me cry.
but thank sso much<3<3
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~ 49TH CHAPTER ~

It's been two days since... Bill and i were apart. My world turned upside-down. Everything had changed without any warning.
I was deeply depressed, lying on my bed the whole time, thinking what would happen if it wasn't this way, what if.
My cell phone was turned off. Bill was calling the whole time. I couldn't talk to him. Not after... that what he did. I was blaming him, Nikola, Katy... everybody. But especially me. I was stupid. Why did i even let somebody in? I should have known better.
Ah, i could have said anything to myself. Blame myself for loving somebody, but there was no doubt i still loved Bill. I was actually prepared to forgive him. My heart still belonged to him.
But my mind was telling me other way, irrational. That i should simply forget him. If i ever miss him just remember the way he hurt me.
(...)
It's been 2 months now. My life was still incomplete without... him.

My phone rang. I looked at the screen, it was my mom.
-Hi mom... – i said.
Mom : Hey honey. Are you okay?
-Yep. I'm fine.
Mom : You sound sad. What's wrong? Tell your mom what happened?
-Mom, nothing happened. I'm all fine. Don't worry.
Mom : Ah, okay then. So, i'm calling because... you know, my wedding is in 7 months. It's so soon.
-Hehe calm down mom. You've already been through this, you shouldn't panic.
Mom : But this time my kids will guide me through.
-Hehe well i know yu can do it. It's ok. You're just excited.
Mom : I can't understand your dad. He acts like nothing is happening.
-Haha mom, nothing is happening. He's relaxed. And you should be too. That's the day when you and dad should be happy, be glad you have each other and... – i stopped.
Mom : Honey?

-I'm here. Sorry.
Mom : Sweety, do i hear tears in your voice? – she asked me with that carrying voice.
-No, not anymore. Hehe.
Mom : Why are you crying?
-Well, you know, this marriage thing. Everytime i think about it... ahh, forget it.
Mom : Tell me. what happens when you think about marriage?
-I remember Bill.
Mom : Ohh...
-I just remember home and place where we met, where he proposed me. I was stupid to say 'no'. But in the other hand, i'd probably be married now, trapped.
Mom : Marriage is not a trap, you know. It's a union between the persons in love, the ones who can't live without each other. And you know it very well.

Mom : Lely? Are you there?
-I'm here. once again sorry – i answered after a few secunds, wiping the tears away – i'm not sure... can i talk about the relationships and those things.
Mom : Yes, i get it. But actually i was hoping you could help me with the wedding planning.
-Oh.
Mom : But i get it, i get it. You and Bill were close. You really liked him.
-Mom, i loved him. But, i'd like to help you.
Mom : Great! – she became very happy.

Mom : So, are you going on Natasha's wedding?
-Eh, yeah, i told her i'm going to be a bridesmaid. It kinda sucks.
Mom : Whyyy? I'm sure you'll have so much fun. Oh, and maybe, she has some nice friends. I mean, male friends.
-Haha mom!
Mom : Whaat? I'm just saying. You should get over Bill.
-I needed a year the last time.
Mom : Ahh, well take your time sweety.
-Thanks mom. I'm glad you called. We haven't talked like this in a while. I miss Zagreb. I'm think about moving back.
Mom : NO! – she fastly said.
-W.. why?
Mom : You gotta stay there, you know, create your own future.
-Emm... okay?
Mom : Okay. So, mommy gotta go now.
-Hehe okay. Bye mom, love you.
Mom : I love you too, bye hon.

I hung up. Mom reminded me i gotta go on Natasha's wedding too. I knew Bill was going to be there, they were friends after all. I really wanted to see his face, but i knew i'd just fall apart then.
I missed him but didn't want to show it. Even though it was obvious. I couldn't stop it.
I liked his company. He was so easy to be with, funny, nice, carrying, he was every girls' dream.
And i had him. But then... i lost him. And i was kicking myself 'cause of that mistake.

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Thu Jul 15, 2010 10:32 pm

I'm glad to have a friend like you too!!! <33 You're my sweetie... ^^

Ahh....I don't even know did you do the right thing with Bill....Maybe you should forgive him...or maybe...You should listen to what he has to say about that night....
I don't know...Try to make the right decision... Wink

And

!!!! You called your mom and you didn't call me?!?! Razz

You should be ashamed of yourself!!! Razz

xD
We haven't talked in a longggggggggggggggggggggggg time.... xP

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Fri Jul 16, 2010 8:45 am

Awwwww, great story Smile

Love it!!!! Hope you get back with Bill, he's the only guy for you Razz

Post soon!

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Fri Jul 16, 2010 11:11 am

@Jelena : awww<3
hahahaha i'm sowwy, i called you, just didn't write i did Razz

sure, next chap is yours babaaay xD
oh, i already an idea how to put us back together xD
<3<3

@Annie : haha awww that's sweet lol Very Happy

thank youu<3

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Fri Jul 16, 2010 3:26 pm

im soooo sorry i didnt reply to the last few chapters...
i read them all and i love how the story is going...
except for the fact that you and Bill arent together anymore..
hehe hope it gets better!!!
POST SOON!!!! xD

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sat Jul 17, 2010 10:17 am

it's okay

oww, thanks
haha sure Very Happy

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sat Jul 17, 2010 12:58 pm

hehe anytime!! <3

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sat Jul 17, 2010 10:19 pm

Yay! Big 50! Very Happy

~ 50TH CHAPTER ~

-Natasha, i'm not sure... about being your bridesmaid.
Natasha : Noo, Lely! What are you talking about? I want you there. You gotta be my bridesmaid. Or either way i'll get angry- she winkled while looking at wedding dresses.
We were in a store, buying Natasha a wedding dress and dresses for bridesmaid.
-Well... He is going to be there. And it will be weird. I just want you to be happy onthat day. I might act... strange.
Natasha : Look – she turned to me, put her hands on my shoulders and smiled – i'm sure you're going to be fine. It's not like you have to talk to him. You two will be at different tables, okay? And i think you may like some friends of mine.
-Natasha...
Natasha : Hush! Let's not talk about that anymore. Okay? You're just thinking about him more and more. Forget him honey. So, let's pick my and yours dressed – she turned back to the dresses.
-Ok – i vacantly smiled and sat on a chair.

Natasha : Hey, do you like color violet? – she asked me and the other girls who were also bridesmaid and showed us a long violet dress, with thin shoulder straps.
Girls seemed so happy, thrilled. I just nodded my head.
Natasha : Lely, will you also try on the dress?
-Sure – i took a dress and went to the cabin.

Natasha : Oh my! – she smiled when she saw me – You look absolutely gorgeous.
-I'm not so sure – i was looking myself in the mirror.
I didn't have a feeling like the dress fits me.
Natasha : You don't like it? – she looked at me disappointedly.
-No, no, i love it. But do i look good in it?
Natasha : Of course you do. Actually, i think we should pick another dress. You girls will look prettier than me – she hugged all of us.
(...)
I finally came hone after a few hours of trying on the dresses in the store.
I felt totally exhausted.
I turned on the tv, the news were at the moment.
'... and then the car bumped into the highway fence. The wounded is a young 20 year old guy. We still don't know the name. But he has black long hair, brown eyes, tall around 188 centimeters, thin, as the doctors say...'

Black hair, tall, 20 year old... BILL!
My head was screaming his name. I didn't hear the tv anymore, i was all into him. He's wounded.
'... it's sad, but he's in a hard condition. Doctors say the family and friends are needed. So if anybody recognize the description, we're asking you to go to the hospital and be with him. They said...'
He might die!
Tears filled my eyes. I lied on my bed, gathered my legs together and embraced them with my arms. I was shaking, my head hurt.

I woke up with a headache.
The last thing i remembered was screaming Bill's name in my head.
I fastly took my things and ran out of the apartmant. It was cold outside, but i didn't notice it. My blood was circulating through my veins, i didn't feel coldness at all, i felt hot. Fear was burning through my skin.

-That guy from the accident? It was on the tv. Where is he? – i was panicing.
a nurse on the reception nodded – Nurse : You're a family member?
-I'mma... – then i stooped.
What was i to him actually? Nothing anymore. I steped back from the reception and though for a moment. I didn't know what to say.
Nurse : Miss?
-I'm sorry. It's... i'm looking for somebody else –i turned and went away.
'I'm looking for somebody else?' wtf? Why did i saw that? I could have simply said that i'm his girlfriend or his sister or something, just to see him.
But i knew how much it would hurt.
I was walking through hospital halls. Thinking how stupid i was, and how morbid this looks.
I leaned on the wall.
'I think he's going to be okay. But we gotta observe him the whole night, of course' – i heard some voices in the next room.
Then the doctors came out and sent a nurse in. I protruded.
It was...
-Tom! – i ran into the room when i saw him on the bed.
A nurse : Shh. Who are you?
-That's Tom. i.. i know him.
A nurse : You do?
-Yea... – i was just looking at Tom laying on that bed, motionless, helpless.
Doctors came into the room – One of them : Hello, i'm doctor Clarkson. You are saying you know this guy?
-Yes. He's a friend of mine. Well, at least i think he is. Anyway, his name is Tom. Tom Kaulitz.
Dr. Clarkson : Okay, that's good. Do you know does he have any family?
-Well, he has a brother B... – i took a deep breath - ... he has a brother Bill. He lives here, in Berlin.
Dr. Clarkson : Okay. I gotta ask you for his phon-
At that moment somebody ran into the room – 'Tom?!'
He seemed shcoked and scared.
'That's my brother. Is he going to be okay? I'm Bill Kau...'
Then he saw me. He stopped talking and his eyes sparkled.

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sat Jul 17, 2010 11:22 pm

Wait Tom had and accident??? O.o

I was so scared that it was Bill O.o

Call me in the next chapter...or...I'll kill you Razz

<333

LoL...btw...sta se desilo sa mojim brakom?? Zaborawila sam kao mi se zowe muz O.o

Subject: Re: *Try to see world through my eyes Sun Jul 18, 2010 11:02 am

AHHHHHHH!!!! Thank God it wasn't Bill Neutral

Hope everything turns out all right :/

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