*Try to see world through my eyes

Bill is BACK!!!!! yay!!!! hehehehe great chapter!!! xD <3 <3

post soon!!!! xD

@Annie : haha yaay :D
oh, i loooveee him *-*
well, yesterday you had a clip of 'eenie meenie' as your signature ;D

@Karen : aaaaawww thank youuu

xD
uuu, i agree big time! *drooling*

lol but he doesn't actually have a video on that song, even though the lyrics are WOW! *o* xDD

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~ 59TH CHAPTER ~

Even his eyes were smiling, i saw sparkles in them.
-You are... here – i reminded myself to breath.
Bill : Of course i am.
But then he suddenly turned and got down of the stage.
-W-where are you going? – i followed him with the look.
But he continued walking to the exit of the restaurant and went outside.
-What the... – i couldn't move now, i was totally confused.
Everybody was watching him leaving, but then they all looked back at me.
I felt embarassed.
I ran down of the stage, through the restaurant to the restaurant's front door, where Bill went out.
I felt people's eyes on me, but i didn't care so much.
The music started playing again when i got out.
I looked around myself, but i didn't see Bill. I only saw darkness and that big park surrounded with trees. I felt insecure, like he left again. Just when i thought everything will be okay.
But then somebody put a hand on my shoulders and i turned.
Eric : Lely, what was that? What happened with Bill?
-Ah, Eric, you scared me – i put my hand on my heart, to calm down myself.
Eric : Sorry – he said with a strong voice.
-It was... Eric, i'm sorry. I thought Bill and i got together. We talked and... – i didn't end my sentence, i just looked down, didn't want to hurt him.
Eric : I get it – he put his hands in his pants' pockets – you still love him and i was just somebody who would help you to get over him. But now he's back and everything's back to normal. Uh, Lely, i didn't think you were one of those – he nodded and sigh.
-One of those? What are you talking about? Eric, we just met and i... i really don't wanna hurt you. I like Ammy and i like you. I really do.
Eric : Then why are you going back to Bill? You said he hurt you. Why do you wanna go through that again? – he put his hands on mine and looked at me with his green eyes.
-Love hurts, Eric – i looked away, still trying to find Bill with my look.
Eric : I could love you more than him. I promise you i would never hurt you. You could trust me. and you wouldn't worry about our fights or money or anything. Because i would be there to support you. Lely...

I sigh and crossed my arms. I felt sad for a moment. I felt sad for Eric.
'cause i knew he would never understand my feelings.
-Don't you think you're going to fast? You're already talking about the money and you're promising my your whole life, all your love. That's being irresponsible. We don't even know each other. So slow down, honey – i put my hand on his cheek and smiled – you shouldn't go that fast. There will be lots of girls in your life. But how do you know i'm the right one for you now? – i looked at him curiously.
Eric : I'm following my heart.
-Eh...
Eric : Look, Lely, you maybe don't think the same way as me, but i know one day you will regret. The same thing will happen with Bill and then you'll ask yourself 'why did i even come back again?'. But i won't be there then.
-Eric, are you actually telling me Bill is not good enough? – i crossed my arms again.
Eric : Well hello!
-It was my mistake letting him go. I'm glad he's back now.
Eric : And do you even know where he is now? It seemed like he went away. Again!!!!
-I went after him. You stopped me.
Eric : I just came to tell you how big mistake you're doing.
-Don't tell me how to live my life.
Eric : You'll be sorry later.
-I really hope Ammy isn't similar to you. I was hoping we could be friends.
Eric : She won't be friend with you if she's smart at all.
-So now you're insulting me?
Eric : No,oh, crap, i'm sorry. I didn't mean it – he tried to apologize.

-Uh... please, just let me go.
Eric : There's no other way to stop you and make you stay with me?
-Sorry.
Eric : Eh, my first heart brake.
-Hehe your heart isn't broken. You're just disappointed.
He rolled his eyes and we both laughed.
-So, are we okay?
Eric : Yeaaah. I'm sorry for being such a jerk.
-We both messed up.
Eric : I guess so. So what are you going to do now?
-What do you mean?
Eric : I don't see Bill here.
-I don't know – i almost started crying again – i think i'll stay here for a while. Maybe... he changed his mind and – now i wiped away my tears with my hand – i don't want anybody to see me when i fall to pieces.
Eric : Come here – he hugged me – i'll stay with you if you want.
-Nah, i think i wanna be alone.
Eric : Are you sure? – he was still hugging me tigh.
-Mhmm. You just go in there and if anybody asks, i went to take some fresh air.
Eric : Okay. But i'll be back to check on you.
I nodded and he let me. He went inside.
I just sauntered to the closest bench and fell on it. I crashed down. He wasn't here anymore. Like he wanted me to feel full again and then made me miserable.

Bill : Why are you crying? – i heard his voice above me when he sat next to me and took me into his arms.
I slowly opened my eyes and saw it was actually him.
-Where the hell were you?! – i yelled at him and shook his shoulders.
Bill : Hehe why are you shaking me? – he smiled.
-Where were you? You ran out of the restaurant without saying any word. I thought you changed your mind. I thought you don't wanna be in my life again.
Bill : Hey, sweety, calm down. Of course i wanna be in your life again. I went outside because i knew you'd follow me. Do you see those lamps on the trees? – he showed the place on meadow surrounded with trees on which lapms were hanged on.
-You did that? – it looked like in a fairytale.
Bill : Well, no. Not actually. But i thought you would see me standing there and you would come after me. Lely – now he looked at me – i wanted everything to be perfect. I know i messed up the last few times. But i wanna do it right this time.
He took me in his arms and carried me under those alight trees. Then he put me down.
Bill : Lely, i don't wanna lose you again. Would you please, - he got down on his knee – i'm begging you now, make me the happiest man on the Earth and – he took out the ring – marry me?

AGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IF SHE DOESNT ACCEPT IM GONNA KICK HER ASS!!! hahahahah!!!!!
sorry for the bad words...im sooooo excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! heheh

i loved this chapter!!!! it feels like Bella being caught between edward and jacob!!!
but like much better and more realistic!!! heheheh i love it!!!

keep it up!!! <3 <3 xD and post soon!!! xD

@Karen : hahahaha okay
khmm, i love twilight and even i have been thinking abut the similarity between twilight and my story xD
but i hope it's not too similar, i don't wanna be a copy-cat O.o
thank youuu ^^ <3<3

@Annie : haha again, hope it's not too similar to twilight O.O
aaaaaaahahha, sure if there's a chocolate cake
*o* like a video-video? *.* am i like.. dumb?O.o could you, pleaseeeeeeee, send me the link?xDD
<3<3<3

hahaha nope, none of them is a vampire or a werewolf
it's just i'm reading 'Breaking down' now and i'm all into Bella and Edward's story
woo! chocolateee! (Y) partaaay! xD
aaaaahhh thank you *-*
why does he have to be so damn perfect? O.O aaaaaaaaaa he's gorgeous, wonderful!!!<3
thank youuuu :*

Dude, already 60th chapter O.O

~ 60TH CHAPTER ~

-Bill?
Bill : Lely, please, just say 'yes'. I think that's all that's lefted to us. I don't wanna fall apart ever again. This way i'm proving you how much i love you, how far i'm ready to go.
-But you already proposed me. You know i turned you down. I'm not sure what to answer now.
Bill : Don't you love me?
-Of course i do. With my whole heart.
Bill : So what are we waiting for?
-I... – i looked away and then back at him - ... I don't wanna hurry with something like this. It is a big step. I wanna get married one day, but not now. I'm too young. We're too young. And if we really love each other, we won't mess up this time.
Bill : I just want it to be official. Of course, i don't wanna force you to anything you don't want to do. But i know i'm different from other guys. I always dreamed about spending my life with the one i love. From the moment i met you, Lely, i knew it was you. You said you saw something in my eyes, something that made you think about me the whole time after the day we met. And your smile... was driving me crazy. It was the only picture i was seeing in my dreams. I was like... obsessed with you. And, the funny thing is, i didn't even know you. It seemed pretty stupid. But i knew someday, somehow, the destiny would bring us to each other. And it did. So, i know this may sound superstitious, but i believe there's a soulmate for everyone. And if you're not mine, then i really don't know who is. 'cause you're the one who always knows how i feel. You're the one who always supports me, no matter what. You're the one i gave my heart to. And i don't wanna live a day without you anymore. And i believe we won't mess up this time, as you said. I know i won't. I'll do my best to keep you mine and happy, the way you deserve. And do you really think we're too young for this? Because, i know we're both mature enough. You keep me from falling apart. I know i'm ready. And now, i'm begging you, tell me you're too. It's all i'm asking. I want you to be happy with me. So marry me. Make me the most happiest man alive. Give me the chance the prove you how much i actually love you. Give me the chance to show you how wonderful life is. Give us a chance.

I was speechless. Nobody told me he's such a good speaker. I have never known he loves me this much. I felt sorry for turning him down the last time he proposed. I wish i could have seen the man he was. The man who he is. The man that's standing in front of me and asking me to step into his life once and forever. The man who just made me ready for this.

I took a deep breath and answered without any doubts – Yes! I will marry you, Bill Kaulitz. I don't wanna lose you again. So yes!
Bill : Yes? – he repeated excitedly after me – Yes! Yes! - he took me in his arms and spinned.
-Hehe yes.
He put me down and looked into my eyes – Bill : I promise you, you won't be sorry. Thank you for making my life better, miss Kaulitz – he winkled.
-Hehehe, miss? Kaulitz?
Bill : Oh, did you think about saving your lastname? It's okay. Our baby will have... two lastnames – he smiled.
I laughed – Don't hurry that much, mister Kaulitz – i winkled back – and i know i will never be sorry for letting you in my life.
His arms were around my waist, mine were around his neck.
Then he pulled me closer and slowly put his lips on my neck. He kissed it and went a little above. He kissed the skin under my ear and then my hair and forehead.
I put my head onto his chest, he was so tall.
Bill : Oh – he suddenly stepped back.
No. Why this had to end?
Bill : I forgot to give you a ring – he bended and took a a little box of the ground.
He opened it and got down on his knee again – Bill : Now, let's make you perfect. Give me your hand – he put a ring on my ring-finger – do you like it?
It was a ring of white gold with a big diamond.
-Dear God, i have never seen a bigger diamond! Dead God, i have never seen a prettier ring! Bill... !! –i hugged him while he was still down – thank you, baby, sooo much! You can't even imagine how much i love you.
Bill : It's good if it's even as half as much i love you.
-To the moon and back.
We sat down, on the grass. I started playing with my new ring. It was gorgeous.
-Was it expensive? I bet it was – i made a weird face.
Bill : Hehe. Actually, it was my mom's. You know, family history – he put his hand round my shoulders and kissed my forehead.
-Mhmm, nice. What did she say when you told her you wanna propose me?
Bill : She was glad. Even though she never met you, she believes me and my judges. So she said if i really think you're a right one, then i should look after you. I told her you were my everything.
-That's sweet. I wonder what will my parents say when i tell them i'm getting married. I'm a little worried. – i looked at him and realized he never actually cared about anybody's opinion about this – But i know i have you. They should be by my side if they really love me.
He smiled a big smile.

We layed down on the grass. I put my head on his hand and huddled next to him, the way i could see his face.
He was looking up, at the sky. I closed my eyes.
He started singing quietly – Bill : Don't let go. Never give up, it's such a wonderful life. – then he sigh and asked – Have you heard that song?
-Nope – i asnwered with closed eyes.
Bill : It's a nice song. I wonder... how is that to be famous. I bet there would be a photo of us laying here in the newspapers if one of us was famous.
-Hh – i laughed in myself.
Bill : But who needs all that when i got you.
-Mmm – i got closer to him and put my hand on his chest. I felt tired. My day was like a fairytale. I didn't want to fall asleep. What if i do and in the morning, when i wake up, i realize everything was only a dream? I wouldn't be able to go through something like that.
But my mind was far away from here now. I was slowly falling asleep.
-Sing me something – i barely asked for.
Bill : Really? Oh, well... i'll sing you one song written by... me – he probably smiled, i didn't see, but i think i felt – i hope you'll like it. – and he started singing – Out of touch, out of time, just get lost without a sign. As long as you stand by my side, in your shadow i can shine... shine...
(...)
'Hellooooooo!'
'Shhhhh! Don't yell. She's sleeping.'
'Ohhh, sorry.'
'Ehh, you woke her up.'
'Lely?' – a female voice asked my name.
-A? – i was still half asleep.
Ammy : I'm sorry for waking you up.
-It's okay – i said as i opened my eyes and realized i was somewhere unknown.
Eric : Don't worry. You're at Ammy's and my place.
-And Bill?
Ammy : Well, the last night you fall asleep and i saw you too laying outside on the grass. I told him we were friends and he asked could you sleep-over at mine, he had to do something in the town. I hope you slept well – she gave me a cup of coffe.
-Umm, no thanks. I don't drink coffee. So, when will he be back?
Ammy : You should call him. He said he would like to hear your voice when you wake up.
-Oh. Thanks. Thank you both so much. I was so tired last night. Thanks for letting me stay here.
Ammy : Hehe no problem. Eric, phone!
-Hhh thanks.
He gave me the phone, i typed Bill's number, but then i stopped and looked at Eric.
I think Ammy saw me looking at him and she went out of the room.
-Eric? Can i ask you something?
We were in a livingroom. I was sitting on the coach and he was in the armchair watching tv, turned to me with his back.
Then he turned his face to me – Eric : Sure.
-How are you?
He smiled and turned back to the tv – I'm fine.
-I meant... –
Eric : I know he loves you – he turned back to me – so i'm okay seeing you with him. You're happy.
-I am – i admited and smiled.
Eric : And as you said, it's not like we know each other the whole life. We just met. I was going to fast. So... i wanna apologize.
-Apology accepted. I just wanted to check with you is this okay.
Eric : Mhmm – he winkled and turned to the tv again.
So i typed Bill's number again and called him.

Bill: Hello?
-It's Lely.
Bill : Oh, hi, sweety. How are you? Sorry for leaving you, but i had to meet with Tom.
-With Tom?
Bill : Yep. Didn't you know? He's been released from the hospital a few days ago. He feels fine now so we met outside. Karla asked for you.
-She did? Omg, i missed her. We haven't talked in ages. She didn't respond my text masseges or my calls.
Bil : Yeah, she said she misses you. I told her you two should really talk. I think she will call you.
-Great – i smiled – and when will you be back?
Bill : I can come for you now. Do you need anything?
-Umm, no, actually. I would really like to stay here for a few hours, if that ain't a problem. I'd like to spend some time with Ammy and Eric.
At that moment, Eric turned and looked at me. He smiled and i smiled back. He nodded and continued watching tv.
Bill : Oh. Sure. So just call when you want me to take you home.
-Oh, one more thing.
Bill : Yes?
-You're moving in with me now, right?
We both smiled – Bill : Of course.

awwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehehehe i loved his chapter!!!!!!

its soooo sweet!!! xD hehe keep it up!! xD <3 and post soon!!!! xD

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@Karen : hehehe thanks <3<3
@Annie : thank you ^^
haha the books are perfect *o*
aaaaaa dudeee! that's like.. omg! i'd die for something like that, i get her haha
@Milica : pročitala si priču?

hahaha tell me about it, i'd too O.O

awww!!!! how sweet!!!

what is that Niola doing back here again?!?!??!?! STALKER!!! hahah!!

keep it up!!! i love this!!! and please post soon!! <3 <3 xD

@Karen : thank you

Oh my god!!!! This is so freaking awesome!!!! I can't believe they're engaged!!!
Please post soon!!!
Sorry I didn't comment before, I wasn't arround, I just came back from vacation so I'm updating with everything. And that includes all the fanfics so I think I'll be pretty busy for a while.

@Annie : ow.. hahaha
thanks <3
@Sophie : haha yup i'm happy, lol
ohh, it is okay
haha have fun
<3