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@Annie: (;
@Karen: owwwi. ): sure.<3
@Sophie: hehe. same with me :S although some goodbyes make me cry too xP
and i'm starting to write a new chapter(;

Cool!! Can't wait for it!

Oh, dear God! Good thing he's not dead, phew! But he might die I don't want him to die.
Aw, poor Tom, he must be devastated :/ I would love to come and hug him tight... too bad I can't.
So sweet, that memory! Cute little Tom wanting to build a treehouse for the birds :3
Post soon!!

man!!! this is so emotional!!!!! im in tears!!!!
keep it up!!! its really good!!!! <3

girls. ): <3

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CHAPTER 10

'Tommie, wake up..' – Sandy shook him.
He fell asleep on a chair in the hall at the hospital.
'Hey. ' – she smiled to him.
He opened his eyes and stood up to stretch himself. – ‘Any news about Bill?’ – he asked.
‘Umm, no, not really.’ – he nodded.
‘I feel bad for falling asleep.’ – he said.
‘Tom, it’s okay. And nothing changed so there’s no big deal. You should maybe go home and take some rest. Guys already went. I said I’ll stay here and call you if something happens.
‘No. I will stay. You should go home. You look like hell.’
Sandy looked at him with a grim face.
‘Oh, no, no. I didn’t mean it in that way. I was just trying to say that-‘
‘Eh, I’m going home.’ – she interrupted him – ‘Call if something happens.’
She turned and went to the hospital exit.
Tom was watching her leaving and remembered those times when they had no worries and knew the ‘’goodbyes’’ they had said to each other didn’t mean forever. And now, nothing is sure.
Tom was walking through the halls alone. He was shooting a coin on the floor.
He felt great pain in his chest, like a little heart attack. It meant something was wrong. Something wasn’t right. And the first thing he remembered was Bill.
‘No…’ – he sigh while looking down then slowly raised his scared look and ran to the reception.
‘I’m sorry, where’s Bill Kaulitz. He was in the room-‘ – he quickly asked the nurse.
‘Yes, yes, I know in which room he was lying. Hmm.. don’t you know? He had a surgery.’ - she answered.
‘I know. But where is he now?’
‘He’s in the intense room. Would you like to see him? Didn’t doctor take you there?’
‘No, I was too stressed and.. ah, can I see my brother now?’ – Tom asked, but the pain didn’t stop.
‘Sir, are you okay? You look really pale.’ – the nurse put her hand on his forehead. – ‘You’re burning. Come sit. I will call a doctor.’
‘No, no. I’m fine. I just wanna see my brother. Please?’
‘Okay.’
At that moment, when nurse wanted to take Tom to see Bill, a doctor came there with someone’s cardboard and sigh –‘Ah, this can be really disturbing. You know, Miley, when such a young person, in the age of 18, has to die.’ – he was filling up the cardboard. –‘ I mean, us, doctors, we’re all so different, but yet, so similar at the end. Like, look at me. No, I don’t believe in God. I think he’s just a fiction that people created so they could think there’s something above them, stronger than them. It’s just… unnecessarily.
But, of course, some doctors believe in miracles, in God, in paradise, imagined place where are only rainbows and no craps. But… life’s not like that.
Ah, and so we’re all different. But you know what…’ – doctor was talking and nurse and Tom were just standing there and listening him. Tom was thinking about doctor’s first words. ‘age of 18. Has to die.’ But he continued listening about life’s results, how people are different but later, it all comes to one –
‘Blaming on God.’ – doctor ended Tom’s thought. – ‘So if he exists, why does he let things like this happen. This boy didn’t deserve to die. I didn’t know him, but I know one thing – children don’t deserve to die. No matter how they’re like. It’s just not fair. And now, I have to tell his family he passed away. And I know I can’t say ‘’ I know how you feel ‘’ because I don’t know how they feel. But my heart hurts, too. I was the one who couldn’t save that boy.’ – doctor just nodded.
Nurse was looking at doctor and felt sorry . For him and for the boy he was talking about.
‘Soo..who is that 18 year old boy?’ – Tom asked scared.
Doctor looked at him – ‘Oh, well… I’m doctor Grandphil.’ – they shook hands.
‘Tom Kaulitz.’
‘Oh. Kaulitz. Are you mr. Bill Kaulitz’s sibling?’ – doctor asked.
‘Yes. So who is that guy who just died?’
‘Oh. Well we should talk. Come with me.’ – doctor took him on the side.
Nurse was watching them from the distance. She just saw how Tom started crying all of a sudden. She realized what happened, who died. She felt bad for a young man who was grieving.

‘But, I don’t understand. He was fine. And a few days ago, he fainted. And nobody thought it’s something serious. And now you’re telling me…my 18 year old twin brother is…dead?’ – Tom was in shock.

im literally crying.. =(
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NO! Why? Why did he have to die? I'm crying now, seriously! Why is life so unfair? WHY?!

don't cry. :'C
i'm sorry i wrote it this way, but i'm not a big fan of happy endings. and tho this is kinda too sad. but , eh ://

<3<3

true.:S
am, no, it wasn't. there will be.. one more, i think.(:

So this is the last chapter of this story. I hope you like it, and enjoyed my story. I know it was sad at moments, but that's my style. xP
I think this last chapter made me kinda depressed while writing it, lol.

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CHAPTER 11

'We all live a life that’s full of bad and good moments. But we never learn to appreciate those good moments. And you think nothing will ever change. You'll have your poor, old, but still kinda fun and loving life, that you'll live that way forever. All you need is right people and a little bit of luck. It doesn't seem so hard to be acomplished. So you hope nothing ever goes wrong. You don't think about the consequences until the accident happens. So then you realize… how much those moments actually meant to you. You realize the one you loved so much is gone. How you didn’t even have a chance to say what’s on your mind. To apologize.
I know that feeling. To feel like you’re on your own now although people around you will always be here. Or you just hope they’ll be here anytime you need them. At the moment, they want to be your support. You know you need some support. But the one who seemed to be your whole life isn’t here anymore. So what’s the point? You can’t just continue living normally, like nothing happened. That’s just wrong. You will always remember that person, those great moments with it. Don’t ever forget them.
And… if somebody ever asks me would I change anything… I’d answer ‘’no’’. I know I could have showed more love to… ‘ – Sandy felt like choking when she had to say Bill’s name. She was giving a speech on his funeral. But somehow she continued talking, although it was too hard. –‘ Ah, he knew I loved him. After all, we were best friends. Ever since the grade school. And I know I could have showed more love, but… Bill… always knew my feeling about him. He was my big brother.
And Tom, Gustav, and George know I love them, so much. Us five were…always together. But Bill was keeping us all together. And we all miss him. This all still seems unreal. I could have never imagined my life without Bill, and now, here I am.’ – she let a tear fall down. She was barely talking now, but she didn’t stop. She wanted to say all that she meant.
‘I just wanna say to all of you here. Don’t ever erase your memories with Bill. I want him to be here, now, with me. I wish I could have changed something about his illness. But I’ll always remember him as the one who was making me smile and keeping me from falling apart. And now, it has to be four of us. It won’t be the same, but we’ll always be a backup for each other.’ – she smiled to guys, who were sitting in the front row, agreeing with Sandy’s words.
She wiped away the tears which were running down her face, and closed her eyes –‘ Bill, I love you.’ – she ended her speech, opened her eyes and slowly went back to her seat.

Ever since the day Tom found out Bill passed away, everything changed. Guys and Sandy were still spending all their time together, not talking, just sitting in one room and every one of them was thinking about the same thing, although they didn’t know that - about Bill, of course.
Tom has changed complicatedly. He slept in Bill’s room, on Bill’s bed., ever since the day Bill died. It made him feel like Bill is still present. The pillow was filled with Tom’s tears. But nobody knew that.
Sandy felt totally alone, with no one by her side, as she said in her speech. She knew she has guys, but it’s not right without Bill. She didn’t go to school for next 2 weeks after Bill’s death. Her mom took her to a psychiatrist. It didn’t help. She was just sitting on the sofa as the psychiatrist was trying to pull something out of her. But no progress. So all she could have done was to stay home and wait the day when she’ll be strong enough to finally stand up.
And although Gustav was always the one who made them all laugh with his acts and Georg with his words, there was no more laugh.
And after a few weeks, they all got together to the place where they had their rehearsals, where they first heard Bill singing, where Bill’s dream came true. Somewise. And they were all just sitting on their chairs, not knowing what to say.
And it seemed good, silence can be good to.
They spent next few weeks like that.

And then, a year later, they all started college. They didn’t even see each other. Like they forgot the promise they made, to stay together until the very end. But there was no more the one who was keeping them together. One of them was missing and it wasn’t the same anymore. So they separated in peace.
So after 10 years, when they already had their own families and found new important people in their life, they’ve met again. At the anniversary of graduation. So when they saw each other, it was impossible not to let a tear. Because, although they separated, they still missed each other. How can you forget somebody you’ve been closed to your whole childhood, for 18 years.
And it seemed like a piece of their heart that once had died, when they split, has healed. But they all knew they can’t compensate.
So only one word meant an ending of one story, of their separation, and a beginning of the new one, their new life after that moment.

So I guess that was the last time they’ve seen each other’s faces. Because it was just impossible to start all over again. But they always remembered their love and random moments spent together.

THE END!

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So..that's it!
Just wanna say...thanks for reading my stories. (:
There are, i think, 3 one shoots i wrote and posted on the forum and, as you know, one story in chapters that you already read.

I guess i might start writing a new story, because the ideas just pop into my head. o.o

So thanks, girls.<3
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this is so sad...i hate funerals..
but honestly its a great story..i rreally loved it..
and you're welcome..you're the one who's making us want to read more of your stories..
hehe..keep it up!!! <3

hahaha you're right Karen!!
Personnally, I loved this, you made me cry so easily! That is really amazing and usually I'm not so affected with these kind of things. I have to say, your stories are awesome!! Can't wait to see what your creative mind has for us to read!!!

@Karen : funerals, eh. >_<
but thank you.<3

@Sophie : awwi, well i guess i'm glad i can say my sotry had an affective impact.(:
and thanks.<3
i'll try to make some more good stories.^^

@Annie : haha. cool. aaand thanks, once again.<3
trying to write more.

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